This is not the first time I have read Chamber's My Utmost.  The first time I read it was shortly after I became a Christian when I was 16.  It was different from other Christian books I saw because it was not practical.  The passages in the book are not simple applications that fit with the rest of life.  They are applications for someone who is already consumed by God and needs more.

Salvation does not mean merely deliverance from sin or the experience of personal holiness.

As a frustrated teen, I thought the world was wrong.  People just didn't get it: they were narrow-minded, fickle, unreliable.  I did not realize that this described me too.   Yet somehow, Jesus has continued to meet me where I am.

The salvation which comes from God means being completely delivered from myself, and being placed into perfect union with Him.

The act of meeting with Jesus over many years has changed me greatly and continues to change me.  Jesus is a person whom I interact with regularly.  This is not religion, it is a relationship that brings life.

When I think of my salvation experience, I think of being delivered from sin and gaining personal holiness.  But salvation is so much more! It means that the Spirit of God has brought me into intimate contact with the true Person of God Himself.

I cannot go back to the way I was.  This life with God is too good to give up.  I am genuinely sad for friends and family who do not know the awe of a relationship with Jesus.  Every day, I see the Holy Spirit waking people up just a little, and I get a thrill at the realization that a great harvest is coming.  Perhaps this is why I am committed to this new church.

And as I am caught up into total surrender to God, I become thrilled with something infinitely greater than myself.

This is part of a series: Reflections.